It has been over a year since I have been back at working out. My third trimester of Pregnancy with Nyla. Before that I have been very athletic and always working out so it was quite a change on my body to have no excersise. I am finally back at 24 hour fitness and have a great workout I have been doing that has been burning tons of calories. I feel like I have so much energy again. While my workout today I had so much going through my head. I was thinking back to when I used to do my All Star competative cheerleading and how much I missed it. We go through so much stuff growing up and all we want to do is grow up. I wish I would have enjoyed all my high school and college years a little more. I was always so anxious to move on with my life and get on with the next step in life.

Now being a complete adult with wife dutys and mommy dutys that I love to death, I still miss being a kid, teenager, college student. I miss my days going to Interior Design school in Newport Beach. That drive was not fun, school wasn’t always the most entertaining, and I just wanted to get done and finish it. My new goal right now is to learn to live in the moment, and stop thinking about the future. Everything will fall into place.

On my way home from the gym I was thinking about how nice it will be one day when the kids are older and me and Josh can go back to the gym together. Then I think, I just can’t imagine Nyla getting so grown up. I don’t want her to grow up. I just need to enjoy ever bit of her, especially before baby #2. There I go thinking about the future again, ugh. I just want to focus on her and my family. She is at a such fun age right now and growing fast!

I was also thinking about our move to Oregon, a different side to my feelings on our move here. Not just how much I like Cali more. I was thinking about what a big decision that was for me and Josh to decide to move our lives away from everyone we knew, everything we knew to a completely different climate, buy our first house already.  Wow, how brave we were. I should be proud of myself for doing such a bold move, for taking on so much and yes it was hard but I made it through the hard times. I conquered so much. Now back to living in the moment, I just want to enjoy every bit of our life here in Oregon. Who knows if we will move back, who knows when we will even get that chance to decide if we want to move back. I just want to enjoy every bit of my family. I am around them 24/7 and I never get sick of them. That is pretty awesome!! I am soaking in all Oregon has to offer, and although it may not be much I am enjoying it to the fullest cause if we do move back I don’t want to regret not enjoying our time there.

I am the happiest I have been in the 2 years we have lived here. I have learned to let go of some things and know there is hope to move back to Cali. I am enjoying the new people we have met and excited for an old familiar face to be moving near by. I have learned to let go of the things that just kept bringing me down and I feel like a new person. A weight has been lifted off and the enjoyment has been pouring in. God sure does know how to provide in his own timing. We may struggle at first and feel like things will never get better but he will always be there in the times we need him the most and get us through those struggles and when he knows the timing is right he will show us the miraculous stuff he will do in our life. I just couldn’t be any happier right now :) I am focusing on the Present!!