I was watching some talk show and Jennifer Lopez was on. I don’t remember which one it was, but the host asked her what the hardest part of being a mom was and she said it was the guilt. At first I didn’t understand what she meant and the host wasn’t sure either. She then explained how when you become a mom you have all this guilt regaurding your child. You have guilt if you have to leave them with someone. You have guilt when they are crying and so on….

It is so incredibly true. I have never felt so much guilt in my life. Just this morning when Josh wanted to let me sleep in a little and he got up and watched her I could not really get back to sleep. I know that he has so much work right now so I felt bad having him watch her. I always feel like its my job to wake up with her in the morning. I kept hearing Nyla make her little noise that she wants something and I looked down the stairs and she was at the bottom of the stairs wanting to climb up to me. I felt so guilty not being there for her.

Another hard one is having to leave her with someone. Luckily we don’t do this very often cause all our family is in California, but I always feel so guilty to leave her with someone to go out and do something without her. Or even just leaving her with Josh at night to go out shopping. I feel so selfish. I know that I am not but why as a mom do we feel guilty for everything?

Must just be one of those things we inherit as moms.